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Finding a Higher Power

I came to OA because I was sick and tired of compulsive overeating and I was grossly obese. Nothing had worked for the long haul and here I was told the nature of my disease and that there was a solution to a problem that had plagued me my entire life.

I was told that I had to find a Higher Power that would solve my problems. Hmmm, I thought, that should be easy. Having a clergyman, as a father and being a church musician and deeply immersed in the theology of my faith, I thought this would be a cake walk.

In the early stages of my recovery, I did the perfunctory prayers and meditations, and it was smooth sailing for a while. Eventually, I began to struggle with my food and weight. “What was wrong?” I asked God for help each morning, but it wasn’t working.

Alas, the fear of another relapse and a 100 lb weight gain (from the other one I’d had) gave me the gift of desperation. I began a serious study of the basic text, that stated on page 45, “Lack of power, that was our dilemma.” We had to find a power by which we could live, and it had to be a Power greater than ourselves. Obviously. But where and how were we to find this Power? Well, that’s exactly what this book is about. Its main object is to enable you to find a Power greater than yourself which will solve “ALL YOUR PROBLEMS.”

So, I had to reflect on my Higher Power and acknowledge that it was the one given to me as a child. The God of my Sunday School, the God of the sermons I heard attending church, and not simply a God of my understanding. My disease forced me to let go of childish notions and to begin to seek, as I continue to do, a relationship with a God of my understanding. I did not have a personal relationship with the God of my youth. I respected and feared God, but HE had no utility in my life. He was just there watching and recording my bad deeds and to be worshipped on Sunday and special days.

As I have found a God of my understanding, many of my religious tenets I have re-embraced as they have personal meaning to me today. I have a personal relationship with my Higher Power that is ever-evolving and My God (FATHER/MOTHER GOD) helps me in all facets of my life. I have not abandoned the faith of my youth, for I love the music and the sense of community I feel there. But my relationship with God is personal and irrespective of any religious dogma. I can truly say, I found GOD in OA.

— Nancy R.

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More Than Power

I grew up believing God was all-knowing, all-powerful, and ever-present. However, it wasn’t until midlife, with the removal of the food barrier, that I felt loved by Creator God. Through the Twelve Steps and the camaraderie of other recovering compulsive eaters, I experienced God’s mercy, His greatest attribute.  

While reading in “We Agnostics,” I became aware that the scale was my golden calf. I had been going to the scale every day monitoring the fluctuating ounces that would determine my self-worth for the next 24 hours. I was devastated! I had become a slave to the scale. I want to note that this incident was 26 months after I stopped that behavior, because at my first meeting I learned I had a disease and God would take care of my food and weight, if I let Him.  

The God of my childhood is the same God in my adulthood, but with more mystery and majesty. I am so grateful to have experienced God’s mercy and been relieved of an oppressive disease.

— N.J.

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Three Blocks to My HP

When I read the topic for our newsletter this month, I automatically thought of page 55 in the Big Book. In the chapter We Agnostics it explains that God (my Higher Power) was always there, but He was blocked by three specific things. The Big Book says, “…for deep down in every man, woman, and child, is the fundamental idea of God. It may be obscured by calamity, by pomp, by worship of other things, but in some form or other it is there.” If we look at these three things individually, we can see how the inventory process helps us become unblocked. 

The first is calamity or bad things that have happened to us. I know for myself, growing up in an abusive home, there were many harms done to me. I was able to put all of the resentments down on paper and heal from it by continuing to work the 12 Steps on a daily basis.  

Then there is pomp, my ego, or my self-importance. By working through the last column of the resentment worksheet, I am able to find my part in anything that’s disturbing me. It’s really a gentle way to level my pride and remember that I will never be more than a flawed human being, just like everyone else on this earth.  

Lastly, there’s worship of other things. This one can be very sneaky. I like to think I don’t worship other things, but I do. I’m worshipping other things any time I’m putting something before God. Sometimes it’s as simple as my time, money, or activities. I like to believe that I get to decide what or how to spend these currencies. The truth is that none of it is mine. It’s only on loan and I need to worship the Giver, not the gift. These, I find, usually come out in the fear part of the inventory. I’m afraid I won’t have enough time, or enough money, or afraid I won’t be able to do what I want to do, and I’m gently reminded that self-reliance doesn’t work. I must surrender all to Him.  

Therefore, after finding our Higher Power, may we all remain unblocked from our Loving Creator by continuing the inventory process on a daily basis. And as my sticky note next to my prayer chair says, “There is God, and the rest is just clutter.”

— Jodi C.

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Article 9 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

How do you best use your sponsor:

  • To discuss the Steps and Traditions.
  • To use as a “soundboard” for certain actions before the action is taken.
  • To check with about an action that was taken that you think may need amends.
  • To listen to writings that a sponsee wants to share.
  • To discuss/create food plans (at least the initial one.)

    Setting guidelines for sponsorship:
  • At the beginning, set out parameters of contact (how often and when.)
  • Do not make decisions for a sponsee.
  • Encourage sponsee to write and discuss written material of chosen.
  • Advise sponsee that it is ok to change sponsors.

    — Anonymous
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Article 8 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

I have a couple of sponsors and that is because I do different things with each of them. One sponsor I send daily food and my gratitudes to as well as do a morning check-in Monday through Friday for for about 10 min. The other sponsor is a little more hands-off, but there when I need her. I send her my gratitude’s daily and we check in periodically.

My biggest focus for sponsorship is that we use the Big Book and work through the Steps. We work together to work out a schedule for check-ins and Step work. We talk through their goals with their food and discuss food plans.
— Lisa S.

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Article 7 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

I best make use of my sponsor by talking to her about how she works the program regarding things that I am struggling with i.ee., relationships, emotional disturbances, and how to enlarge my spiritual life. I trust her implicitly and do my best to follow her guidance. She is always straight and honest with me even when she knows it is something I do not want to hear — that is when I value her the most… when she calls me on my baloney. I am grateful to be able to have someone to be accountable to… with my food, my feelings, and my commitments. I use my sponsor to do 10th Steps with, to clear away my mistakes ASAP, and to move on from them instead of trying to figure out how to fix, manage, and control them as I used to do.

In sponsoring, when I first talk to my sponsee, I share with her what I expect of her, ask if she is willing to go to any length, and let her know I am here for her, to share my experience, strength, and hope.

— Maria L.

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Article 6 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

When I first started, I called my sponsor three days a week to commit my food and read my writing from the assignments given; after about a month we talked 15 minutes/5 days a week and would review the Steps, Traditions, and Concepts

After reaching my desired weight loss, we reviewed the 100 questions, now we talk weekly. I take my sponsees through the same process. After going through the Steps, Traditions, and Concepts; I leave it up to them as to how many days a week they feel they may need to contact me. We do set a time and the days of the week they will be reporting. I am always open for calls if they have an emergency.
— Beverly P.

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Article 5 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

I share what has worked for me with sponsees. I do not ask them to do anything I have not already done. The minimum is simple: have OA contact every day (meeting, phone call, or out to lunch); call me regularly (their decision on weekly, every day, or 3-4 times weekly); and attend at least one meeting weekly. If they want more benefits of the program, they will do more: utilize a God Box; journaling, even if it is only “God, I am so tired.” at one a.m.; and reading a piece of OA literature every day. I use all the tools, have had two sponsors (sometimes a third) as I have gone through the many seasons of my life.

— Nanc J.

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Article 4 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

I talk to my “main”  sponsor once a week and I bring to her what has been issues for the week as well as high points. We continue to grow with each other. Sometimes we will read from literature and sometimes I will discuss issues that are bothering me and she will ask me what Step am I working on. She shares ideas with me and gently reminds me to forgive myself and helps me find confidence in my problem solving. This is one of my sponsors. I also have a food sponsor who I send my food and gratitude list to. My main sponsor has a very strict food plan and she felt it was too difficult to take my food. My food plan is much more flexible and so I got a food sponsor who has a more flexible plan. This has been great for me.


— Karen F.

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Article 3 – “How do you best use your sponsor?” R5 Intergroup Writing Series

I use my sponsor for any serious problems regarding food/emotional situations that happen. Also, for any/all Step writing/reading assignments as my sponsor can guide me how it worked for him. Then I will learn to use what is suggested by my sponsor, as well as my own learned experience in the rooms to keep me alive from my defects, my food addictions/behaviors, and my overall dilemma. When my food is better, then I get better and we get better together.

How do you set guidelines for sponsor or sponsees? I set them as my sponsor operates with me. By having my sponsees call on time when they are supposed to and to not waste this opportunity in working with another overeater. Read/write all Step assignments. Always attend meetings. It is a two-way street with both of us earning/improving our own emotional recovery and abstinence. This is a life and death situation for me, so sponsorship is vital.

—Anthony C.